21DSD – day one

I have officially begun my first 21-Day Sugar Detox!  I’m hoping this brings me a new light in how i see food, how i treat sweets and how much i truly need to eat.
My goal is to eat slower, learn to eat less before i eat more, be real with how much i’m eating and listen to my body!  I don’t usually eat a ton of sugar, but i do notice cravings and the negative effect i’ve been getting from my recent fruit and honey intake.  liiiiitle bit more than usual.
I want to detoxify and start afresh! woo!

My morning started out great! 🙂 I forgot to buy green/green tipped bananas so my plan to make this Avo-nana smoothie did not work out..
Instead, I had some immune boosting soup with a fried egg and broccoli.

mmm.  i was super satisfied!
But, i knew trouble was coming.  My Aunt visits every other sunday and they always have Coffee and Dessert…  what’s a girl to do??

By Lunchtime i was hungry and ate 2 stalks of celery with sunbutter while i prepped my food <– this is where my mistakes began.
For Lunch, i had a granny smith apple with cinnamon and coconut butter and more immune boosting soup.

This really wouldn’t have been so bad had the next parts not happened.

After lunch, the smell of coffee and blondies was making me want to dive into a fountain of caramel goodness.  Obviously, i wasn’t about to cheat.  but you don’t need to cheat to make a mistake.. and that is what i learned today.
So, i threw together a 1/2 batch of this fudge and made a cup of licorice spice tea (has the most delightful sweet aftertaste)

I’d like to say it wasn’t a craving and just that i wanted to take part in the visit..  but (not so) deep down i know i’d be lying.

Shortly after i devoured the fudge and drank my tea, i realized i hadn’t drank more than 7oz of water yet today…  I usually drink about 65oz of water per day.  After i had some water my hunger pangs left me.. thank goodness! I was safe, right?  …Or so it would seem.
By 3:40 i felt like eating something so i ate a small carrot and a small handful of almonds.
why.
whyyyyy.

after that i was like OKAY DONE.  NO MORE SNACKING.
boy, was i ever in for a surprise.

At 5:30 i made myself a fried egg with salmon.

yummy goodness.

I was all “yeah, no more eating for the night! i’ll be all good!”
But then i got the idea to make a batch of Almond Butter and Sunbutter.
harmless, right?
it should have been.

I somehow managed to think it was okay to snack and snack and snack on almonds while i measured them and prepared the food processor.
Then after making it i had to test it…  and lick the spoon…  and scrape the bowl down.
THEN i made my sunflower butter.  i usually don’t feel like licking up all sorts of that so i thought i’d be all good.  But then i had the brilliant idea of trying to make a Vanilla Chocolate Sunbutter.
The beautiful smells of warm vanilla and creamy chocolate just beckoned me to taste it..  and taste it i did.
Licked up the spoon and scraped down the bowl too.
Why did it have to taste so good?

I really don’t even want to think about how many calories i ate today.
just.. no.

My day wasn’t filled with cheats but i definitely feel like i cheated by making the mistake of over-eating on “Okay” foods. *cough* almonds *cough*
It’s embarrassing to write it all out, but i’m hoping it will just be a reminder to not do it again.
Tomorrow is a new day full of new beginnings and opportunities 🙂

Overall i was very happy and chipper
Low bloating
No pain (Pretty sure i was wrong about a nut/seed allergy)
Energy was low due to lack of sleep
And i obviously did have some cravings going on.  but i think it’s cause weekends are my weakness.. maybe.. maybe not…no..? okay..

Here’s to the next 20 days that i will look upon positively and with determination!

Muffins, sunbutter and rhubarb

I love spending my time in the kitchen.
Yesterday, i spent all afternoon making muffins, sunflower butter and washing then cutting up 15c. (120oz.) of fresh rhubarb from the garden (mmm! i love rhubarb!)
Will definitely be baking something with rhubarb soon 😀

My muffins, sadly, turned out badly. so very, very badly.
I don’t eat grains so i had to make my own Baking Powder… Well, i’m going to have to figure out how to use it cause it made my muffins super salty/baking soda flavor.   I literally gag on them it’s so bad! i’m so embarrassed and sad! I know for a fact that i followed the recipe 100%, minus the 1/4c. coconut oil that someone forgot to list when to add in the recipe so i forgot about it. but i doubt that would cause the major explosion of baking soda flavor?? I’ll have to play with the homemade baking powder.. see if i have to omit the baking soda/something in the recipe when i use it.

On the bright side, My sunflower butter turned out out Perfectly! so yummy!!
And i happily snacked on rhubarb while i cut it up 🙂

well, I’m going to clean my room, clean up my sisters clothes (re-fold everything) and tidy up her stuff.  Maybe have a nap after that… mmm

Breezy days

I love this warm weather!  I always feel so much more alive when it’s sunny and warm.
breezy days that carry the scent of flowers.. mmm.. my favorite.

Every year i have a sort of “Playlist” that forms that is my summer go to music.
This year, i am in love with Korean indie and ballads.  Pretty and simple music, music meant for just running away to the middle of nowhere with no one to stop you.  Music that pulls on my heartstrings.

So far, these seem to be the start of my summer playlist 🙂
 Standing Egg - LIKE  Standing Egg - Ambler Davichi - Love Delight  Davichi - Mystic Ballad Vanilla Acoustic - Vol. 2 Part. 01  Vanilla Acoustic - Semi-Basement Romance  Lucia - Decalcomanie

Some old, some new 🙂

Today has been super hot! 31 degrees and really humid! Although i said i love warm weather, i really dislike the humidity here.. I’m not even hot yet i feel like i’m dying!  Canada likes to go from 0 Degrees to 31 Degrees in two days.  My body has no time to adjust! uggh

I have been in a baking mood the last couple days! I’m hoping to bake some muffins or bread this weekend 🙂  I have to make some more Almond Milk too so i’m super excited for my weekend! I love spending time in the kitchen 😀 Weekend will definitely be busy for me! My boyfriend will be away so i have to keep my mind occupied so i don’t miss him too much. hehe

I re-organized my room last night.  I feel so much better now that I’ve tidied up a bit more.  Just have to get into all my boxes under the bed!  yet another thing to do this weekend!

Well, i’m going to make myself a cup of green tea.
Hopefully the weather gets a bit cooler tonight so it’s comfy to sleep.

I haven’t written much.

I blame it on me being completely lazy.

I went through some extreme stress last week and it was NOT fun. i was miserable all day, i never felt well rested, cried myself to sleep, etc.  Just awful.
I was wondering why i was feeling that way.  Why did i *have* to feel that way?  Then all of a sudden a thought pops in my head “You don’t have to, you know.  You could just choose happiness”.  my mind was blown.
So i decided to be happy, re-think my words and make sure they aren’t negative, and just stop being so darn self focused.
I wrote a little note to myself so i wouldn’t forget.
“I’m starting to realize that i need to make the most of my life and always look on the positive side.  Just because I can’t have gluten, grains, refined sugar, potatoes, legumes, dairy, and coffee doesn’t mean i can’t be happy and enjoy food. Why should i care when i’m practically forced to eat my favorite foods 24/7.
Be happy and make the most of every living moment.
You can’t change the situation, But you can change how you view and feel in the situation.”
I’ve gotta say, i’ve been pretty happy ever since.

Speaking of food! I got to make Cinnamon Bun Muffins, Chocolate cereal, Snickerdoodles, and waffles these past two weeks. 🙂  All gluten, grain, sugar and dairy free.  My belly is happy.
In mid-June i will officially be 4 Months Gluten and Dairy free! I am definitely seeing improvement in my health every month. Even though i’m eating healthy and leaning out, i’m filling in.  I went through eating problems and practically starving myself in desperate attempts to lose weight that i got too skinny.  and most of my upper body hadn’t filled back out in the last two years.  I’m no longer embarrassed to reveal my back in dresses! so incredibly happy! i could cry haha.  It’s amazing what our bodies are capable of!

I seriously nap a lot now.
I used to never nap! now i nap almost everyday.  sometimes twice a day. (11AM to 12PM and 4PM to 5PM) seriously, i’m just finishing up this post then napping.
I blame it on sleeping at 11PM and waking up at 5:30/6:00AM for my morning workout.
need to fix that..

Anyways, i am nodding off here.
I need to start updating more often, i just don’t always have anything to talk about.  I will change that!

zzzzzzzzzz.

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Oh, spring.

Oh, spring.

You have finally graced us with your warm embrace and moist air.
My skin, hair and lungs thank you.

Seriously, my body hates winter. Health goes up and down constantly, hair turns into wheat, skin decides to break out, body decides it can’t keep itself warm, etc.

I am so excited for warm weather! Even though i have to avoid the sun like the plague (Burn super fast) I still get my 5 – 20 minute soak everyday before covering up and i love it! no more having to mentally prepare myself to be assaulted by icy cold wind when i go outside. i can just prance out the door and feel the warmth of the sun shine down on me.. mmm. Spring makes me so happy.

It’s been awhile

I haven’t made a new blog post in awhile cause I’ve been kinda busy (but kinda lazy at the same time). I haven’t been on my computer much lately.

Life has been a bit stressful and complicated… And often times when i think it’s finally getting better something happens and it tears me down.  I feel really sensitive, and i can’t figure out why.  It’s hard..because most things i shouldn’t get upset about are upsetting me, and it feels like no one cares.  I try to not care…  I know i shouldn’t care.
But guess what, I really do care.  And i can’t help it…  I can’t change my feelings even though i want to.
I think i need to just sit down and let it all out.. tell someone.. cry and have someone just hold me for awhile.  I just don’t know who to go to.. cause i don’t even know what to say.

Despite my 6day/week exercising, healthy eating and keeping my skin clean, my skin has been freaking out lately.. and i think i just figured out why.  My facewash is too harsh (I don’t use store bought cleansers cause they have chemicals that fill my pores like there is no tomorrow. ew) so, i’m looking for other options (Honey, Fresh coconut milk, fruit, veggies, essential oils, etc).  Hopefully, my skin gets better.

I’ve been baking a lot! Making Gluten-free, dairy-free and refined sugar-free goodies (That aren’t exactly goodies cause they are so low in calories and healthy)
Finding out more foods that i can’t eat has been a pain.  I can’t have Legumes (Peanuts are being tested now, i think i might be able to in super small and rare amounts) and most definitely have to avoid potatoes (But i can have sweet potatoes! yum).

My sister comes home in 9 days 🙂
I plan to spend most of my summer with her hehe. So excited!

I have to go do some laundry while it’s still sunny out (And warm! Finally warm here in Canada)
Hopefully i actually post again within two days.
Stress, go away.

Settling in.

This week I’ve been very busy with packing, un-packing, moving things around and throwing things out.  My room is starting to come together (This summer i will be doing some painting here and there to make it look the way i want it to.  For now, it shall remain white walls with un-matching desk, dresser, bed, shelf and chair haha.)

So far, everything has been pretty good.  Everyone has been getting along well and I’ve been getting healthier and happier.
I’m hoping to be able to start exercising again this week.. i don’t know, though.  It depends if there is any boxes left around that could get in the way.
Tonight, my parents are bringing my desk here.  So, i’ll be able to unpack almost the rest of my things. (Still waiting for a shelf for all my books, tea-cup and other odds and ends)  I’m a bit of a clean-freak so everything being stacked everywhere in my room is driving me crazy!  I cannot wait until i’m finished and can just relax (Before going into a get body ready for summer mode)

My bunnies are gone, a lovely lady took them in at her little farm.  She was kind, so i am at peace with it and know they will be loved and taken care of. 🙂
Well, I need to do some tidying up so i better get off the computer.
I pray I can successfully sort this stuff out!